I'm so in love....

Ever notice how when you're in a brand new relationship the first few months are the most romantic and memorable ones. You start off talking 3 to 4 times a day. You want that persons voice to be the first voice you hear in the morning and the last one you hear before falling asleep. You can't stand the thought of being without them. You want to spend every waking moment possible with them. And you can't even imagine the thought of not being together forever. There will never be another person like this. They're perfect for you.

And for a while everything is right with the world. But then you get comfortable, start spending time apart and start hanging out with your friends again. You're still together but don't need to be constantly with each other. You still talk everyday, but sometimes its only for a few minutes while you're on break or on the way home. The romance isn't there like it used to be. You both figure we're together now so we don't have to do those little things anymore.

Then you start picking apart everything they do. They didn't act like they should have (or the way you thought they should have). They didn't give you the answer you wanted to that important question that meant a lot to you. They didn't call when they said they would. They're hanging out more with someone else other than you. Your friends start telling you they knew from the start that they weren't right for you. They start telling you every single fault about that person. And all these thoughts start creeping into your head like, "maybe they don't love me anymore," or "maybe I'm just not good enough for them," or "maybe its just not the right time," or better yet "maybe we should be just friends."

So you stop talking to them. Ignore their calls, their emails, their facebook comments, and sometimes maybe you even change your number to avoid them. When someone starts talking about them, you shut down completely. You don't want to hear anything about that person because they hurt you. Or didn't treat you like you thought they should.

Isn't that how we treat Jesus???

In the beginning we are totally sold out to God. We're telling everyone we know how awesome the new love of our lives is. How much He loves us. How much He talks to us. We pray every morning, noon and night. We read His word more than anything else. We constantly feel loved. And everything is right in the world.

Then our friends and family start putting these doubts in our head. "Well where was Jesus when that happened?" "Why did God kill this person? I thought He could heal anyone." "Why did God not answer that prayer? Did He not know how much that meant to me???" So we only pray maybe once or twice a day. We maybe read His word once a week. And we only think of Him in passing.

And eventually we put God out of our lives for good. We can't stand for anyone to even talk to us about Him. Anything in our lives that reminds us of Him we throw away. I mean He didn't answer that prayer we really needed. He wasn't there for us when we needed Him. So we change our number so to speak. We ignore His calling. We let another woo us to them.

You know what? After Pastor Jason's sermon yesterday, I decided to fall totally and completely in love with Jesus again. I want those first few months feelings every month. Every day. I want Jesus to be the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing before I fall asleep. I want to talk to Him more than 3 to 4 times a day. I want every day to be the first day of our relationship. I want to draw little hearts around our names on every piece of paper I see.

Jennifer
Loves
Jesus

Together Forever